Health, Spirituality

Day 7: Connections

Let me start by saying that I am not a huge fan of spiders…or their webs (though I can honor their beauty from afar). So when a couple of weeks ago I started getting this image of a beautiful web with random strands lighting up, to say that I was slightly confused would be an understatement. Remember that I am truly the queen of baby steps and my spirit is oh so patient with me. I filed that image in my “to be revisited” folder (in my brain; I don’t actually have folders of things that I don’t get, but need to look into) and went about my journey.

The next week, I read a post written by my dear friend and felt that familiar tug again. I followed in the momentum (of joy)  😉 and offered some free energy sessions (if you don’t know what this is, please take a moment to look at my Energy Sessions tab) to those who were up for the taking. To my surprise, I had quite a few people contact me! I was very nervous at first, but with each session, the feelings and knowings became more intense and meaningful. During the sessions, I began to get images of things that were familiar to me, but that reallymeantsomething to the people with whom I was working. The responses so far have me blown away and have certainly given me the momentum to keep moving forward with this.

Now here’s where the web image keeps coming back. I found that several of the people who contacted me were also people who do energy work. Weird? Not at all! It is very clear to me that many of us who are on this path are very in tune with others and eager to help them if we can, but the truth is, (and I can only really speak for myself) it’s really hard to tune into yourself at times and to make the time to take care of “you”.  Hmmmm… But I digress. So each time I heard from another person with strong intuition and nurturing energy, I saw another little strand of that web light up! Truly amazing. The connections and bonds that are forming with others who are on here, meaning WordPress, (and “out there” in general) are beginning to make sense to me. Annnnddd (drumroll)…bring out that file, re-file image of web into “Ooooohhhh, I Get It Now!!!” folder.

So thank you for taking the time to read my entries, for showing up and “liking” or commenting on some of my posts. I look forward to discovering many more connections in the days, weeks, months to come.

Much love and light to you all!



Day 6: More Love

“More love, I can hear our hearts cryin’

More love, I know that’s all we need

More love, to flow in between us

To take us and hold us and lift us above

If there’s ever an answer

It’s more love”

-Dixie Chicks, More Love (chorus)

It is rare these days that I even listen to country music, but my daughter requested this album the other day and this song came on. The words haven’t left my mind (or my heart) since. While I was listening to it yet again this morning, I found myself doing something odd. I was sitting at a stoplight and watching a man cross the street while I was waiting, and in that moment, I realized maybe this is how we start. So I said a little blessing for him and imagined him surrounded by love for today. It’s something small but what if we all did that? What if we all took a second to send somebody love? A stranger, a friend, a family member…what if? More love. Can you feel that?


Day 5: Preparing My Space


Over the past week, I have begun to transform my office/work room into what is affectionately referred to as my “zen den”. I have cleared the space, painted the walls, and recently added some chairs. What’s my hope for this space? Well, this is where I see myself “working”. This is where I meditate, this is where I give energy to those who request my assistance, and this is where my heart feels whole every time I step through the doors. Getting to this point has taken me a long time. I am the absolute queen of baby steps! And you know what? That’s ok. God truly doesn’t give us more than we can handle at any given time. I believe this whole-heartedly.

So where am I going with this entry? Hmmmm… I am not totally sure right now. A piece of me wants to follow in my dear friend’s footsteps and offer a free energy session to anyone who sees this and is interested. It’s slightly selfish in that I want to practice and to grow in this area, but not totally so because who of us couldn’t use a little loving energy sent our way?! I know I do! So here it is. Writing this has solidified this idea. I am offering a free energy session to anyone who is interested in having a little (or a lot) of positive energy sent their way. I may get something more to share; I may not. Either way, if you are open to it, please email me at and don’t forget to include your name, your age, and the city in which you currently live. I will work on a first come, first serve basis. If you’re not sure and you have questions, please check out my new tab titled “Energy Sessions”.

As always, wishing you love and light today and always!

Health, Spirituality

Day 4: Finding Clarity In My Pain

The body is always talking to us, if we will only take the time to listen.  – Louise L. Hay

I believe that our bodies are messengers for our souls. The symptoms that we reflect physically can always trace back to a lesson to be learned in how we are living our lives, how we are thinking, or to what we are choosing to give our power. This past weekend, some things happened in my family (the family that I was raised in) that caused some of my former physical symptoms to reappear. By Saturday afternoon, I had so much pain and stiffness in my hips and my hands, that my former self would have jumped to a place of fear and said, “my arthritis is back!” I am so very thankful for the knowledge that I now have and that I am continuing to gain because somehow, I did not go to this very familiar place. Instead, I removed myself from the situation and listened. I am sharing this personal information because while each of us have separate lives and different paths, I believe that those who are led to this post will be here for a reason.

I was diagnosed with arthritis when I was a toddler. In my early childhood, my illness showed up in a very obvious way. I had a lot of swelling and stiffness but was blessed with relatively little pain. I experienced my first remission when I was in 6th grade. The remission lasted nearly 5 years. When I relapsed, my symptoms had completely flipped. I had minimal swelling, but a great deal of pain. This was the case through my teen and early adult years. When I went to my first energy healer, I was told that my disease was related to my mom and her controlling nature. This never felt right to me. My mom was amazing. A loving, nurturing mother who always gave more than she received. The energy from that session worked and got me started on the right path, but I believe that the message had gotten muddled somewhere along the way. Thankfully, this didn’t turn me away from the path entirely. I put it in the back of my mind and decided that it didn’t matter why I had this disease, but only that there was a possibility for complete physical healing.

So when I listened this past weekend, I became very clear on my own personal message. When I was a child, my illness was present to teach the adults around me some very big lessons. This is the reason that my symptoms were so externally evident. It was more for them than it was for me. As I grew older, the stiffness and the pain (that only I could feel) replaced the swelling to serve as a messaging system for me. As I became more independent, there was no need for my symptoms to be so external.

This weekend, I fell back into a role of peace keeper in my family. I ran in and difused the situation. In the process, I physically took on some of the pain so that those around me (whom I love dearly) would not need to experience it so much. Granted, their pain was not necessarily physical, but this is how it presents itself in my body. I am telling you all this because as soon, I mean AS SOON as I was given a clearer picture of what was going on, my physical pain began to subside. By Sunday morning, I was pain-free. Absolutely amazing. It never ceases to blow my mind.

I feel so much gratitude for lessons that I have learned so far in my life. I feel so much joy for the the hope that I am now able to see in so many others. I truly hope that as this year progresses, I will find opportunities to assist others in this beautiful journey toward complete healing. Happy Monday everyone!

Wishing you love and light.

Health, Spirituality

Day 3: Physical Healing

There is a lot to be said for waking up at the crack of dawn. For me, it’s mostly that I don’t want to do it. But apparently these days, that’s not up to me. Let go and let God. For the most part I do that fairly graciously (I think). So today, when I woke at 5:30am and tried rather unsuccessfully to go back to sleep, I decided to get up and take advantage of this quiet time in our house. I came downstairs, made some coffee and walked straight into my “zen den” (what my 5 year old daughter calls it) to raise my energy, meditate, and possibly free write. As I began to do this, all I could see was the face of the son of one of my friends. Yesterday, I finally opened up to an old friend about my journey to healing…specifically in regards to energy work. I have known her for years and really like her, but until this past week, I have had trouble publicly owning this part of who I am. I’m not saying that I am now shouting from the mountain tops “I’m an energy healer!!”, but I am paying attention to those cues and opening up when the opportunity arises. Baby steps. So, with her permission, I began to work on her son (long-distance of course…I didn’t wake him up to come over). As I was working on him, I heard something that I had prior knowledge of, but for some reason it was such an eye opener this morning. Since writing my first post and laying out my timeline for physical healing, I have had this thought in the back of my head. Why was my physical healing so rapid? I have met so many that suffer, that are on the path, do energy work, but still don’t experience the same level of healing that I have. What I came to is this (and I believe that I needed to do this energy session on this boy before I was able to write about it): our cells renew themselves. They are doing this constantly. The beauty of this is that it offers us opportunities for complete healing on a regular basis. Some cells take longer to renew. Some diseases (for some reason cancer seems to throw a wrench in so many things) make this process a little more difficult. For the most part, however, this healing is physically possible. Here’s where the tricky part comes in. A friend of mine recently told me that “if the symptoms go untreated for too long, they become a part of your personality.” She was specifically referring to bi-polar disorder, but what she said certainly went deeper than that. Isn’t this the case with so many diseases? If you live with chronic pain long enough, you begin to identify with it so strongly that it nearly becomes who you are. How you identify yourself. I believe that the reason my physical healing was so rapid was because, on some level (though I will admit that that level was very buried at times), I always knew that it was possible to be free of this disease. It hadn’t swallowed me whole despite the fact that I had lived with it daily for 22 years. It was never who I was–though it threatened to become that at times–but rather a part of who I was. For this, I am thankful.

So here’s the challenge. If you are suffering from an illness, a disease, or chronic pain, make a conscious effort today to really and truly feel healthy again. Remember that this is not who you are, but merely a part. If it helps you to think about the fact that our cells are constantly renewing, then do that…often. And here’s the kicker. If you slip back into your old pattern of thinking, forgive yourself and then start over again. This is just the beginning. The emotional work is what takes the longest because we insist on letting our heads get in the way. So for today, for the next week, or month, work on the physical. I promise it will get easier.

Wishing you health, joy and complete healing.


Day 2: Contrast

the card from my friend
I believe that the universe and our spirits have many ways of teaching us the lessons that we are meant to learn. Some of these lessons are taught through contrast. Sometimes I get them; sometimes I don’t. If I don’t get them right away, another opportunity arises for me to see more clearly. This goes back to the idea that God truly is patient. He will keep showing us, giving us clues and waiting until finally we say, “Oooooh! I see now! I get it!” Sometimes the message is clear very quickly.
Yesterday, I received a small package in the mail from my very best friend from college. We haven’t lived in the same city for 14 years, and our lives have changed drastically in those years, but we still have this amazing connection and mutual love for each other. In the package was a little pack of squirrel air fresheners and a card. Small things, but they made my heart sing! Contrast. There are people in my life that don’t bring me this kind of  joy. There are people in my life that take so much effort to please that sometimes I wonder why they are still a part of my experience (of course I recognize that this is because I have chosen for them to continue to be!). It is such a huge contrast to this relationship (and to several of my other friendships). But it goes back to one thing: choice. We do have free will. We have the freedom to really recognize these contrasts and make a decision. What do we choose to experience in our lives? Do we invite more of the joy in? Or do we continue with something that doesn’t feel good and wait for the next big lesson to come and shake us? If we choose the latter, that’s ok too. It’s still a choice and like I said, God is patient. But the reminders won’t stop. What I have found in my life is that if I don’t pay attention, those reminders get bigger. Sometimes so big that I can no longer ignore what is right in front of me. So I have a choice. I choose to pay attention. To open my heart up to those moments of contrast. To recognize them when they are still small enough for me to say, “Ohhh, I get it! Isn’t contrast beautiful!” and not wait until they get so big that I am saying, “why me?!” I am making that choice today. I am going to try recognize contrast when it is offered to me because, truly, this is the gentlest form of the learning process 🙂
Wishing you love and light.

Day 1: God is Patient

Over the last few days, I have begun to realize how extremely patient God, or “the Universe”  has been with me through the years. This is a case where God truly hasn’t given me more than I could handle at any given moment. I was ill as a child, not ill as in I caught a lot of colds, but ill as in diagnosed with an “incurable” disease. While at times this was bad, I was fortunate enough to realize early on that it could have been worse (thanks to a wonderful PT). There were moments where I fell into the roll of victim, but thankfully, those moments were temporary. I prevailed and continued to hold on to my joy. When I was in my early 20’s, my condition reached an ultimate low. I could barely walk and was in chronic pain–pain like a railroad spike was being hammered into my bones. I had reached my bottom. In sheer desperation, I opened myself up to the world of energy and homeopathic medicine. Let me just say that this was a very difficult thing for me. I had come to rely on doctors (MD’s) to treat my symptoms; to give me some temporary relief. But what I realize now is that this disease was deeper than its symptoms. It was a jolt. A wake-up call. I was being hit with a universal 2×4 and it was time for me to look at my life and start making changes. I received my first energy treatment and soon after that my first energy attunement. My physical healing was rapid. Over the years, I have come to understand that my physical well-being is in my hands. Meditation and learning how to take cues from my spirit has been my lifesaver.

I am now at a crossroads. Do I keep my journey and my healing to myself? Or do I begin to open up and share my experiences, my thoughts, my intuitions with others? I have several friends who believe that it is my responsibility to share what I have learned (and am continuing to learn) with others. That maybe my journey could help someone else. If that is the case, then I am in.

It has taken me a while to get the nerve to start this blog. To let people in on my private little journey of wellness and spirituality, but today, I am plunging in. It is a big step for me and while I invite others to join by reading along and commenting when they feel guided to, I will say that this is not a blog where the self-righteous need come. I am human. I am fallible. But I am learning. And I am finding true joy in the process. If I can help even one other person with this, then I will feel it is worth it.

Wishing you joy, peace and light.