Health, Spirituality

Mountains Out of Molehills

  As most of you know, when I was 3 years old, I was diagnosed with juvenile rheumatoid arthritis. In my mid-20’s, I experienced the worst relapse that I can recall. The pain was excruciating and got to the point where I could barely walk. I was embarrassed; I was in pain; I was facing a mountain that I saw no way to get over. It was at that point that a friend of mine introduced me to energy work. She was still learning, but the improvement was immediate (literally 20 minutes passed and the swelling in my wrist disappeared!). I was sold. That was the summer of 2000. Since then, I have also had several energy attunements and have continued on a path of health and spirituality beyond what I had ever dreamed possible.

I am not saying that this path was always easy. I am not saying that I haven’t had moments where I questioned everything. Don’t we all? What I’m saying is that, by the grace of God, I have been given this awesome gift. One where I can connect with my spirit and gain perspective at times when I need it most. Back in 2006, when I was pregnant with my 2nd child, I began getting some physical symptoms. Small pains, a little swelling, etc. My initial response was to go back to that place of fear…what if this was just a really long remission? My mind started swirling and I allowed fear to gain control as the symptoms continued. It was at that point that I began to pray for the fear to be lifted. I began sitting in meditation again (something that I had allowed to move to the back-burner as I focused my attention and energy on my family) until one day while I was sitting in meditation, I started picturing myself walking down this beautiful forest path. The plants and trees around me were a rich shade of green and as I looked up I saw the sunlight shimmering through the top of the trees. It was amazing…truly God’s work. As I walked down this soft dirt path, I came across a stone. I looked at the stone and soon all I could see was this annoying rock (now growing) in my path. I no longer was able to see all the beauty that was around me. My anger (which is just a result of fear) clouded all beauty and light. At that point,  I got this message:

If you hit a rock in the road, you don’t become the rock. You step over it or sometimes even stumble, but you never become it. In this sense, your troubles/ailments/experiences are not you, but rather a part of the journey that you are on.

Now if you ever have experienced one of those true “ah-ha” moments in life, you will understand what happened next. It was as if the clouds had been lifted! I realized that I had begun to put so much energy toward this small pain (which turned out to be just a little reminder about trying to hold on to control over situations that I had no business trying to control), that I had given it a power all of its own. I had focused so much on that pain (and as a result let fear creep back in), that it was starting to block out the light! It wasn’t until I received that message that I was able to gain clarity. I watched as the boulder started to shrink back down into the pebble that it began as and once again I returned to the beautiful path. The pain began to subside. By morning, it was gone. What a beautiful reminder! I hate that I had to get to that point to receive this message, but I am continuously grateful for it. Over the years, I have been reminded of this message many times. Sometimes for myself, sometimes for others. But the truth of it is universal. Don’t make mountains out of molehills 🙂 Let love light your way and see the rock for what it really is: just a rock.

Health, Spirituality

I Choose Love

“Today I commit to giving and receiving love in its full power and glory.”

       -Day 7 of the Chopra Center’s 21 Day Meditation Challenge

Although I started late and am still playing catch-up, I have been doing the Chopra Center’s 21 day Meditation challenge. I already meditate on a regular (mostly daily) basis, but love doing these guided mini meditations. Day 6 was so healing for me that I actually was looking forward to doing day 7 today. It couldn’t have been more timely!

Over the weekend, our family joined two other families at the beach. The beach has always been a very healing place for me…the ocean, the waves crashing against the shore. It reminds me of how much bigger this world is than just my day to day.  However, I struggled a bit on this trip. Not with anyone that was there–we all get along so well and the kids really all behaved wonderfully. What I struggled with was maintaining my energy in this group setting. It threw me for a loop this time. I guess I have gotten used to my little circle where the energy is easy to raise and maintain and where the other people involved naturally “vibrate” at a very similar level. But truly, I started to beat myself up over this. Afterall, most of the people with whom I interact when I’m out and about don’t have to be energetically on the same wavelength, so why did it matter so much on this trip to the beach? I think my spirit was using this opportunity to help me. I absolutely love how I feel when I am connected. I love being able to tap in to source and spirit throughout my days. But truthfully, this summer has been spoiling me a bit. I have had the time and the space and the surroundings to be able to do this a lot. This may not always be the case…especially as the kids start a new school year and I go back to work. I believe that my spirit was trying to get me to this question: how do I maintain a comfortable energy level when I am in the company of the general public? The answer came to me during this morning’s meditation (thankfully). I choose love. After doing the basic focus and breathing portion of the meditation, Deepak Chopra led us into a quiet portion where we were to mentally focus on this mantra: I choose love. As I was in this state, I realized that it was as simple as that. Choosing love when out in your day to day world will always surround you in peace and light. Choosing love will not only help me to maintain an energetic level that feels good but will more than likely be a more comfortable place for the people around me. It is much easier for people to raise to their hearts than it is necessarily for them to raise to a more connected spirit level.

Today, when I have to go to the bank and to other places to do my errands, I will be mindful of “choosing love”. It will be interesting to see how the people around me respond to this.

Wishing all of you peace and love today and always.


Health, Spirituality

Day 8: Feeding Our Souls

We all are familiar with this picture. The food pyramid. We’ve been taught about it in school and when we were young, chances are that our parents tried really hard to get us to eat a balanced diet to help us grow and stay healthy. The pyramid is a great guide. Have you ever stopped to think why? Or even how the food pyramid came to be? I can’t say that I know who first created it or that I plan to ever research it so that I can have that information (sorry, I’m a slacker). To me, that information is not necessary. What is necessary is what I am about to say concerning food.

A good friend called me the other day asking for some insight on some of her food sensitivities, or “allergies”. Let me preface by saying that I do believe that allergies exist. Sometimes they can be quite severe. BUT, as with all other medical conditions, I believe that they are a physical manifestation of something that is happening on the spiritual level…just as my arthritis was. So if you are reading this, please know that I am not discounting the existence of your allergies or diseases or physical ailments, I am just saying that I think it goes deeper than the physical body and that thankfully, most of the time, it does not have to be permanent. This could be an entire post on its own and probably will be some day, but today it’s not my focus. My friend’s question led us into a long dialog about the vibration of certain foods.

That conversation is what led me to this post.  Let’s talk about the energetic “vibration” of food. What? My food is vibrating?!? No, not enough for you to see at least 😉 That would be freaky. But as with all physical things, there is an energetic vibration. As we become more connected, more spiritual, more in tune (whatever you want to call it), we energetically vibrate at a higher level. Because of this, we may find ourselves craving different foods, drinking more water…generally eating healthier. Why is this? If you look up at that pyramid, you will notice that water, grains, fruits and vegetables make up the bulk of what “they” say you should be eating for a healthy diet. On the top of the pyramid are meats, products that come from animals and then finally sugars and oils. Interesting. Like I said, I don’t know who started the food pyramid but I can certainly see the sense in why it is set up in this way. All the items on the heaviest portion of the pyramid are items that vibrate at a higher level. They are “live foods” or foods that come directly from the earth. Plants and water. They nourish our bodies and give us the energy and nutrients that we need to vibrate at a higher level as well. Does that mean that you no longer should eat meat or enjoy that piece of cake? I believe that is entirely up to you. Personally, I really enjoy fish and chicken and occasionally a good piece of red meat. Do they energetically meet (ha ha) my needs? Maybe not, but I don’t think they are harming me either. I believe that understanding that I can enjoy these foods on the top of the pyramid while truly nourishing my body with the foods at the bottom is the key to maintaining a healthy relationship with food.

Over the next few weeks, I plan to make a shift in the foods that I choose to eat. Instead of sensing that I am hungry and then walking over to the pantry or refrigerator to mindlessly grab something to eat, I am going to ask myself, “does this food energetically meet my needs?” If yes, great! If no (but I still really want to have it), then maybe I can allow myself a smaller portion of it without attaching any guilt to my choice. I have a feeling that I will not only see my physical body begin to transform but that I will feel more energized and happier because of it.  Anyone with me on this little experiment? I will be interested to hear about your experiences and results 🙂