I am in a new phase of my life. A “taking care of me” phase. It doesn’t happen as often as I would like (especially while the kids are out of school for the summer), but occasionally I allow myself the time and the space to do something for myself.
Yesterday it was an amazing yoga therapy session with a dear friend. I have now had 3 sessions with her over the past few months, and each session has provided me one (or more) of those “ah-ha” moments followed by a period of letting go, opening up, and moving forward. It is truly a gift! So yesterday, I had this amazing yoga therapy session. Afterwards, I gave her an energy session that was equally as enlightening for both of us. I left this portion of my day feeling blessed and centered and truly joyful…and then the day went on. Slowly, I started thinking about all the things that I had to do by Friday and started worrying about how I was going to get it all done. Over the next few hours, my energy dropped, my tasking mind took control and by the time my husband got home from work, and I left to go to the store (sans kids) to get stuff that I felt I needed to get by last night or the world would crumble (not), my left hip started hurting. This should have been my clue to center and listen, but I ignored it. By the time I got home, that pain was so strong, that I could barely sit down without bracing myself. But by this time, some more things had gone “wrong” and I really was in no place to sit and listen. So I went to bed and suffered through the night. I was a prisoner to sleeping on my back as it hurt to lay on either side and the pain would wake me up every time I attempted to roll over. When I woke this morning, I came downstairs and sat in my “zen den” to finally listen. Clearly my spirit wasn’t going to let me get through another day without doing so! I raised my energy and listened. Surprise surprise, my energy was low yesterday afternoon, I was tasking from a negative place rather than checking things off my list in a joyful way (yes, it is possible to get things done while maintaining your energy in your heart or in a positive way) and my spirit wanted me to gain this awareness. Simple lesson…but not if I ignore it 😉 Would you believe that as I got up from my meditation–and braced myself for the pain as I did so–the pain was gone? GONE! I still am utterly amazed at how quickly things can change, even the physical, when we listen and make a shift.
But the key is in the last part of that sentence. I have been shown over the last couple of months that this is the essential piece that we don’t always get. It is not always enough (not ever) to just “get the message”. I strongly believe that we can all experience health and joy if we are willing to take the next step. I mention it on my page about energy sessions. You can and will receive the positive benefits of energy when you do a session if you are open to receiving. But how long will that last? A day? A week? A month? A lifetime? I feel like this is where your responsibility in your own healing comes in. How long are you willing to “take care of you”? I am aware that I stumble. We all do. My shift has been that I am becoming an active participant in my health and my joy. Sometimes that means that I have to do what is uncomfortable or scary to move forward. Other times it’s as easy recognizing where my energy is and then doing something about it. Message. Action. Repeat. It’s a beautiful journey…even when we stumble. The joy is in continuing to move forward.
Wishing you all a pain-less day filled with joy and love.