A New Awareness

Over the last four weeks, I have been taking part in a truly amazing experience. I am doing a small group Phoenix Rising Yoga Therapy class (also referred to as PRYT). This program is really interesting. It’s not just yoga, but an opportunity to do some real self-discovery. I would venture to say that if you are not ready to take a good hard look at yourself, then maybe this program isn’t quite up your alley. However, I am. I have mentioned PRYT in my posts before. I have done several 1 on 1 sessions prior to signing up for this 8 week course and each session has led to a huge “ah-ha” moment in my life and consequently a “larger than baby step” move forward.

All this being said, we have moved through the ideas of Awareness and Acceptance with moments of extreme clarity. This past week, while meditating, the little voice within gave me this beautiful little nugget of awareness:

You put can’ts around you like a warm blanket. What if you concentrated on pulling those away and on surrounding yourself with “cans”. There is comfort in the can’t mentality. It takes away responsibility and pressure of having to do something. It makes it ok to sit here and wait for things to happen to you. We want you to walk through this discomfort. To move forward in the knowing and the realm of “can”.

Pretty big moment of awareness if you ask me 🙂 And, sadly, so true. I have had moments in my life of complete and utter stagnation. Why? Because I surrounded myself with can’t, got comfortable there, chose to sit and wait, and then proceeded to wonder why nothing was happening! Silly right? But it’s true. So as I currently sit in another brief moment of stagnation, I have made a choice. I am chosing to take another step forward. To really work on removing can’t from my mind and my heart and instead surrounding myself with the idea of can.

What would that look like for you? Maybe even more importantly, what would that feel like for you?

Much love to all of you as you look in and hopefully take another step forward with me 🙂

Maria

Where Have You Been???

I will admit that I am a relatively private person. I know a lot of people, but if I truly take stock in my life, I can honestly say that I have only about a dozen people in my life that know me, truly know me, through and through. Lately, that number has been growing. I have been “coming out” of this shell that I have built and opening myself up to more and more people. I had created this safe little cocoon, a protective layer, hoping that I could let those around me only see the parts that I was ready and willing to share. Well, slowly, I’ve been breaking down that layer…busting out of my cocoon. Why? I’m frankly tired of not being true to myself and worrying about what other people might think. As I head toward 40, I realize that I really don’t know what I’m waiting for. When will I be confident enough to stand up and say, this is who I am. If you like it, great! If you don’t, oh well. So I’m taking another step today.

I realize that I haven’t been writing much over the past few months, and truly there’s a good reason. I get really busy in the winter months with my hobby/teeny tiny business. I feel forever blessed that I am able to use my hands to create and have been able to do so on such a large scale over the past few years. It is a constant reminder of how far I’ve come.

So here’s what I’ve been up to over the last few months. I actually haven’t had much time to even do entries on my other page, but I have managed to do more there than here 🙂 http://joyfulmamadesigns.wordpress.com

Enjoy! And here’s to taking another huge step in my life (insert pat on back emoticon).

Maria