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Feeling Fishy

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I am overwhelmingly filled with gratitude in this moment. I am so fortunate to be surrounded by the most amazing community of friends. As I pondered this, the image of a school of fish popped into my mind (sea life has been a theme for me today).  I think it’s pretty phenomenal to see them swimming in a huge group–stronger as a whole than an individual. From afar, you see them all swimming together, same speed, same direction, same size, same path. If you look more closely, you’ll see that it isn’t as uniform as it appears. The fish are all slightly different of course, but every now and then, one (or a few) will shift direction and swim another way. One of two things happens, either they all shift and swim with it, or it swims a bit and comes back to the group. It occurred to me that we are very much like this group of fish. We swim together, support each other, make one another feel bigger, braver, stronger…and then, when one of us wants to branch off and swim a little bit on her own, we either follow in the wake gathering strength and courage as we go, or we let her know that we’re right here and that she can come back and join us when she’s ready. What a beautiful thing. Friendship. Fish. 🙂

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The Many Parts of Me

I am an intuitive energy worker. Deep breath in. Exhale. I am an intuitive energy worker. Deep breath in. Exhale. I am an intuitive energy worker. Deep breath in. Exhale…

The truth is, I am so many other things also. I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother, teacher, crafter, and friend. Those who know me personally could probably think of a few more things that I am, but these are the ones that I identify with most often.

In 1999 I had a terrible relapse with my rheumatoid arthritis. One that left me in a state where I could no longer work, I could barely make it to my classes (I was getting certified as a teacher at the time), I was embarrassed, I was depressed, and I was, at times, generally hopeless. I was on 4 (maybe 5?) different medications, I had gained 20 lbs from said medications, and I was at a loss. Finally, during the summer of 2000, I accepted an oportunity to go see an energy worker at the suggestion of a friend. I didn’t really even know what that was, but I had nothing to lose. That was July. By September, I decided to take matters into my own hands and to begin training in the art of “energy work”. My primary purpose was to learn how to do it so that I could treat myself. I had experienced a good deal of relief since my visit in July and I wanted to be able to give myself energy any time…and for free 😉 I took a class, then another, then another. I found a community and friends that were nurturing and loving and joyful. I was doing a lot of work on myself and offering and receiving energy on a weekly basis within this community of friends. By the end of October, I had weened myself off of all 4 of my prescription medications. I still had my moments of pain, but they were getting less and less, and I told myself that sometimes healing could be painful. After all, I had lived with this disease since I was 3. I was bound to experience some discomfort. By the grace of God, I finished my classes, I did my student teaching, and I eventually found a job and started my teaching career. I continued to do energy work for myself and for some of my closer friends, but I felt like it was something private about me. I didn’t tell many people. I didn’t tell most people. It had changed the trajectory of my path, but I was scared to acknowledge it.

Fear has a crazy way of holding your wings down when you are meant to soar.

Here we are 17 years later, and I am slowly learning to be fear-less. Rather, I have been graced, yet again, with friends in my life that push me out of my comfort zone. I am finally forcing myself to fear a little bit less. I am not hiding the fact that I do energy work (as much), although I’m not screaming it from the mountain tops yet either. I’m getting there. My life is a work in progress. What I do recognize now is that it is probably the biggest piece of who I am. It is the piece that has weaved itself into every other aspect of who I have become in my adult life, and yet…And yet, it is the piece of me that I have denied and kept hidden the longest. I am determined to spread my wings before I hit 50.

I am an intuitive energy worker. Deep breath in. Exhale. 

 

 

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Calm that Monkey Mind!

There are countless studies these days that laud the benefits of meditation. From medical (lowering your blood pressure), to educational (increasing your ability to focus), meditation is now being acknowledged and recommended by experts in various fields.

When I first started meditating, one of the most significant differences that I noticed was the fact that I was finally able to calm my “monkey mind” and fall asleep at night in under an hour! That had been a serious issue for me for as along as I can remember (even as a child!). I was a night owl, not because I found myself to have an incredibly sharp mind in the late hours, but rather because I couldn’t seem to gain control over my thoughts! A night owl by default, I guess you would say. However, with continued practice, that hour became forty-five minutes, then thirty minutes, and down and down. These days, unless I have a pressing issue on my mind, I am usually asleep within ten minutes of hitting the pillow.

As if this wasn’t enough of a reason, I also have experimented with using meditation or conscious calming of my mind, to lower my blood pressure. Always one for conducting a good experiment, I have tested the “meditation can lower your blood pressure” theory in 2 ways. The first was at the doctor’s office. I can’t say that I love going to the doctor, so when I go, I must admit that I am not my most peaceful/best self. I get nervous and my blood pressure has been elevated on occasion during the initial exam. After having one questionable reading, I used a few breathing and centering techniques that are a part of my meditation practice. When they took my blood pressure a second time (yes, it was alarmingly high the first and warranted another reading), they were shocked to see how different the second reading was! To the point where the nurse asked if I had been nervous when I first came in 🙂 Ummmm, yes. The other method that I used to try quite often, was to go to the pharmacy area and use their armband to test myself. I would sit down, not nervous, just a regular person, take my blood pressure and then take it again while using centering and breathing. Even a slight decrease was consistent. Try it! It’s actually quite amazing.

As far as increasing focus and other benefits of teaching children mindfulness techniques goes, I personally haven’t done much research on this, but that doesn’t mean that it’s not out there! Check out some of these links and see how schools have integrated “mindfulness” or meditation into their school days.

http://www.edutopia.org/stw-student-stress-meditation

http://www.theatlantic.com/education/archive/2014/01/should-schools-teach-kids-to-meditate/283229/   (this one is long and does talk about meditation/mindfulness in conjunction with yoga, but it has some great insights).

http://www.mindfulschools.org/about-mindfulness/research/

So I guess the point of this entire post is that meditation/mindfulness, whether it’s 3 breaths a day or 30 minutes a day, can be beneficial to you no matter your age. I would love to hear from others who have had positive outcomes. How has meditation been beneficial in your life?

 

 

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Body Maintenance…keeping your engine running at its optimal level

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A common theme in our house this past week has been one of “taking care of your body”. I believe society as a whole can agree that food fuels your body. After all, the old saying “you are what you eat” definitely derived from a known truth. However, what many still don’t realize is that your body is also an energetic vessel. One that requires similar attention and maintenance as say, a car. Go with me here. Just as we use gas to fill up our car and keep it running at its peak level, we use energy to keep our bodies and organs running at their peak level. Yoga, acupuncture, energy work (such as reiki) keep your body from blockages and build up. They keep the gas moving through the engine, so that your vehicle can continue to run at its optimal level. But what happens when you have run yourself ragged and have not found ways to “refuel”? We all know that no matter how hard we try, we cannot keep going if that gas light is on for too long. Eventually, your car will stop…hopefully near a gas station. But here’s another thing. I’m not a mechanic, but I have heard that if you drive your car and don’t keep up with maintainance–running out of gas on a regular basis, not changing the oil, rotating tires, etc–then you will most certainly have some bigger, more expensive, problems on your hands. At the very least, the life of your car will be greatly diminished. Do you see the parallel here? If you don’t do things to regularly maintain this “vehicle” that we’ve been given, then you yourself are responsible for diminishing the life of this vehicle! That’s a big responsibility. But the truth is, it’s not that hard to maintain. Feed it well…every now and again, fill it with a higher octane. Rest. Get to know your own body. Listen to it. When your body gives you signs that you need a break, take it! After all, you don’t go from full to empty that quickly. Pay attention. Learn to recognize when your body is giving you signs. For example, last night my son said, “I feel weird. I feel almost…empty.” I complimented him on recognizing that feeling and asked if he would like an energy treatment. He said yes because, if nothing else, my kids recognize the value of refilling when they are feeling low. When I was giving him energy, I saw that he was completely in balance (that will have to be a future post), but that he was very depleted throughout. In other words, his gas tank was on empty. I filled him back up and this morning he came downstairs feeling back to normal/full.

So you might ask, what if I don’t know someone who can give me energy? My answer? Well, it’s kind of mixed. I do believe that you can do things to fill yourself back up. Rest, spend time out in nature, find time to do the things that you love…that fill your heart, meditate (or deep, focused prayer), listen to your favorite music, have a good meal that has plenty of “live foods” (this is fruits and vegetables…things that grow from the earth). Slowly, these things will help fill you back up. If you are already full, then these are the things that will keep you full! These are your natural ways to maintain your vehicle. If you feel so low that you don’t feel much relief from trying the above, then seek out someone who can give you energy. Get a massage, acupuncture, yoga…do something to get things unblocked and moving again. There are many avenues and methods to attain your optimal level. Try some out and then go with what feels best and works for you personally.

And remember, if energy work interests you, but you don’t know where to start, you can always come back here and set up a distance appointment with me (if you aren’t local). I would love to help!

As for me, tonight I am trying something new. I just signed up for a Sound Healing Meditation class and I am excited to experience something that I haven’t done before. I’ll let you know how it goes 🙂

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Happy 2016!

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Honoring the self. Nurturing the self. This is that time of the year when we begin looking at what we are dissatisfied with–parts of our lives and our bodies–and begin making “resolutions” that are intended to change the things that we don’t like.
What if we were to shift our thinking ever so slightly, and instead make a promise to nurture the parts of us that we do like but that often go neglected because of other priorities or obligations.
If you enjoy running, promise yourself to make more time to run. If you enjoy meditating, carve out 10 minutes (something doable but fulfilling) a day to focus on meditation. If you love art, promise yourself to take a class…do better,  seek it out and book it!
I was recently given the message, “action is required”. Show that you are willing to take the steps and open the doors to all the possibilities!
Happy 2016 to all of you!

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What You Focus On, Grows

I do energy sessions for people. This mostly consists of channeling energy and interpreting information about balance and depletion for my clients. However, the majority of the time, I also receive messages for them during our sessions.  Sometimes these messages are very specific for what they need in that moment, but I have found that the message almost always resonates with me as well.
When I asked spirit about why this always seems to happen, the answer was clear. “Foolish is the being who believes that they have learned all that they need to know. When the messages stop resonating with you, then it is time to look more closely at your life and your journey.”
With this in mind, I began to think, without jeopardizing the confidentiality of my clients, maybe I am meant to share some of these messages. After all, if they resonate with me, isn’t it possible that others could benefit from them as well?
So today we focus on gratitude. What if we made an effort to state gratitude starting with the simplest of things. At first, it would seem silly.
“Today I’m grateful that I remembered that I had these curtains from our old house. I just got them out and they fit perfectly on the doors to my office.”
It seems silly to state it, but the more you notice and state gratitude for the seemingly mundane, the more blessings you will begin to notice in your life.
Focusing on criticism–whether toward self or toward others–will only bring about more opportunities for criticism.
I believe it’s time to shift our focus to gratitude!

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Help to Slay the Dragon

Sometimes I have difficulty keeping up with all the blogs that I follow, but this particular entry is one that I have come back to again and again over the past week.
The last few months have been filled with personal growth for me. One of my main setbacks over the last 10+ years has been fear. Fear is my dragon. While this post isn’t necessarily about fear, the message is universal and couldn’t have come at a more appropriate time. Hope you enjoy it as much as I did!

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80446443_Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.

~ Neil Galman

I confess, I believe in fairy tales.  As I shared yesterday, I have experienced the dragons in the darkness.  I have been singed by their fiery breath and I have knelt prostrate in grief in the tunnel of darkness.  I have felt the magnitude of mired thinking drag my soul to the depths of despair.  In the middle of the night, I have begged the darkness to swallow me whole.  But my soul always flickered at the last moment, holding onto shards of light’s vestiges with a tight grip until dawn.

And I am still here.

I can attest that the dragon of despair and darkness can be beaten.  He can be foiled into surrender.  His source can be blockaded and he retreats…

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